Study Habit

I still quite remember how I did my study back in my secondary school. I have done almost every single possible exercises that I have needed, things get into my head easily, all I needed the day before exams was alot of rest and sleeps. I only remembered I flipped through my reference books for SPM the night before exams. And all I got was this:

Despite having 2B’s for SPM, I was still a pelajar cemerlang =.=

Then, when I come in to MMU, during my foundation, I have study group. Or was it groups. I would just fit in anywhere with anyone who wanted to study. I was a 3 pointer back then.

Then this was what happened to my room back during the days when I was in engineering.

I would spend most of the time in the room, ocasionally outside studying. My room would be in a mess, notes around, everywhere, room disorganised. Best of all, I would never fail to not not fail a major subject every long trimester.

Then now, in FIT all I needed was my bed and my laptop. All I freaking need to do was to go through the slides, freaking remember every damn thing and hope I don’t forget it by the time I get into exam. Not to boast, but IT subjects mostly requires you to only remember. Not to think critically. Engineering’s maths and programming paper can put FIT papers to shame. If I am tired, I would just doze off on my bed.

2009: New Year Resolutions

On 31st December 2007, I made some new year resolutions for the year 2008. Lets visit back what had happened.

1. I ought to add my weight until 45kg. Well, finally after all those hard work of eating, somewhere in the middle of the year, I had stomachache. It took a big crap out of me. I had it for 2 days. The next thing I know, I am back to 42kg. No matter how much or whatever crap I eat, I can barely touch 45kg.
2. Save more money. After I learned to save to buy my Wacom tablet, I took the virtue to save even more. At the end, I bought NSD Powerball (Yes, an NSD, not china made 1), a new laptop. Practically I striked off all my Christmas wishlist. I owned a Sony Alpha A200W now.
3. Another year without touching cigarette.
4. Shut (past tense) that stupid stalker up. But didn’t castrate him/her.
5. Fucked 100% attendance aim. I attend what I needed to keep my quota and my knowledge.
6. Despite my aim to have a good 2008 year since the I am suppose to believe there’s an 8 in the year so should bring some ‘ong’, 2008 was the thoughtest year I had in my Uni life.

Lets recap back what happened during the year 2008.

• 8th/2 I thought facebook apps are crap. It had continued to stay so. One of the reason why I am on facebook, its because of the social network and the photo album thing. Not app-ing.
• 11th/2 I can’t celebrate Chinese New Year coz of MMU. 2 days holiday for CNY, yet you give 1 week for Aidilfitri. Very fair and adil. Fuck. Even those universities in Indonesia enjoy 1 week of holiday.
• 24th feb I realised I can type 120 words per minute.
• 15/3 Realised people google and stumbled upon my blog for the wrong keywords.
• 29th/3 Discovered the true meaning of NSD Powerball.
• 29th/3 Discovered the meaning of swimwear juxtaposed with the word hijab.
• 30th/3 I recieved spam from the future.
• On 1st April, Gmail tried to be a fool and sent all the spams to my inbox.
• 4th/4 Bought a pair of hamsters.
• 9th/4 An unidentified student spotted googled up by blog.
• 14th/4 I was deprived of my lunch by a fucking idiot chinese.
• 3rd/5 I camwhored for the first time.
• 15th/5 Fucked electronics engineering and switched to Game Design. Although I hate programming, but at least I can run away from doing maths on daily basis.
• 11th/6 I went on complete void after this post because I lost the feel of what i means Being ian.Tam
• 2nd/12 Summarized what I have learned in life up to the year 2008.
• On the 31st of December, I slept thru New Year (practically).

And 1 most interesting fact is I discovered 10 ways to destroy Earth!

So, what are my resolutions this year? I simply don’t have 1 now. Oh, perhaps I need more exercise.

Life lesson: I learned it my way

If you plant honesty, you will loose trust,
If you plant goodness, you will loose friends,
If you plant humility, you will loose dignity,
If you plant perseverance, you will loose time,
If you plant consideration, you will loose patience,
If you plant hard work, you will loose life,
If you plant forgiveness, you will loose respect,

So, whatever you plan now, does not matter.
Bad things are bound to happen.

Whatever you give to life,
life does not give you back equally.

I appreciate for those who tried to stay by with me although I shut my door off. I will need a bit more time to piece myself back together.

I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love. Thank you for all the support I get. Although it is words of silence.

I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. But I am no hero when I am alone. There’s only a finite among of capability I can contribute before life is taken away from me.

Update: Xmas Wish list

Its been 5 months since I last blogged, I have almost completely lost the mood the blog, feeling my life is not worth to be shared publicly. I do complain about life, instead of making the fullest out of it.

Anyway, Chirstmas is just about a month plus away and here’s my wish list. I’ll just copy paste from my previous 1 here and update it.

• Some high end consumer Benq digicam I want A D50 or the newer D40x now Proud owner Sony Alpha A200W (Twin lens)
• A tie got it
• An ipod got it
• A graphic tablet Bought Wacom Bamboo Fun with my own savings during my birthday this year
  
• Get my laptop lcd hinge repaired Got a new laptop Inspiron 1420
• New cloths too many cloths in my closet now
• Electric kettle Bought a huge 1 for myself some time ago
• More money Some how I managed to learn saving now
• A set of speakers Got an Sonic Gear Evo 5.Enough to shake the floor if that bastard below my unit try to blast crappy music from his speakers.
• Girls around me Cancelled. I am happy with what I have now

Holly crap. I have completed my Xmas wish list. What more can I ask for this on coming Christmas except for hoping that those fucking idiot Malays to grow up and stop being racist. (This will never happen during my life time). *I am only referring to a particularly small group of people. Random and general people need not to bother about it.

p/s to that stalker of last year, if you still around, fuck you!!! I managed to get a DSLR by savings from my pocket money. It is not that I never appreciate anything. I had to starve and save to get the money. And I did worked to get extras.

Meaning of Family?

What’s the use of having a family, when you can’t give love or get love? Everything revolves around money. Sacrifices are made for bringing the money back to home, meeting the end needs. But in the process, money has rooted evil, evil has blanketed this family. It does really reflect this world is materialistic. Almost everything is being exchanged with monetary value, whenever applicable, whenever possible.

I appreciate, I respect, I admire all the sacrifices done. But what had happened to the road down? I cannot stand a day more to see all these happening. You can stab me repetitively, you can let me bleed slowly to death, you can skin me off to let me be in pain, but all these pain is much more lesser than seeing almost everything around me falling apart. I shall choose the path least traveled, not knowing the world at the other end, to live in solitude, enduring all the never ending agony alone. With this, Being ian.Tam is dead.

GOODBYE my world. May the memories of Being ian.Tam be the flowers and sun shines of a heart broken into thousand of pieces, hiding behind it.

ROAD LESS TRAVELED

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth

Then took the other as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way
I doubted if I should ever come back

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence
Two roads diverged in a wood
And I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference

<<Robert Frost>>

At least, I hope I will make a difference. Once again, Being ian.Tam has reached the end of its chapter.

May I now rest my head, closes my eyes and let myself be drifted away with all the sweet memories that was left for me.

Have I overspent?

All this while, I keep track of my expenditure. Even down to the single cent. It has become a habit to me. But somehow, somewhere, RM1250 is floating around in my balance check, no where to be found. On ptptn statement, they already paid me RM5250. But up to date, I only have RM4k the student financial kiosk statement. If the balance were banked in to my account, I would have informed my dad, make a note on it. But it so happen, I didn’t do it this time. Have I overspent, or did ptptn owe me money? It is no small amount.

My application to change course is approved!!!

Yahuuu!!! Exam already finished and I already approved to change faculty. Exam finished on 12th May. 34 days holiday. In your face!!! Muahahaha.

Bye bye Electronics engineering. Software Engineering and Game Design here I come

Freedom Day 2

Muahaha… exams already over for me since monday. Enjoying life for second day. We all have 3 weeks official holiday, but since my exam ended on the 1st day of exam itself, I have almost 4 weeks of holidays. Yahuuuu!!!!

In your Face Algorithm & Data Structure

I remembered I did badly for my last in-lab assignment. I didn’t even study well before hand. Kind of busy with other stuff. But then, I managed to get 6 out of 10 marks. That makes my total accumulated score of 33. out of 40.  17 marks more to pass!!!. But I already lost 7 marks, the highest I can go is 93. For the last midterm, managed to score fairly well. 15 out of 20. Those who scored more than me are complete nerd. You are not geek, but nerd. Only nerds can remember every single programming line and debug it right inside their head. How could you possibly write every single programming line on those exam paper flawlessly? I will still need a compiler + debugger to step through those coding.

What kind of self-collect courier is Poslaju?

I came back home from campus after lunch. Found a note from Poslaju. I have a parcel. I called the Putrajaya Poslaju, to arrange a 2nd delivery, knowing that I have missed the 1st one. Guess, what the lady over the phone asked me to go their office to collect it myself. What a stupid staff. The courier already paid. Why do I need to go collect it myself? What on Earth is this kind of courier service. And damn you postmen. If you see a female name, you will call before delivery, but if it is a male’s name, you don’t. I have done enough experiments to proof this.

In the end, I demanded for a second delivery. The lady warned me I must be at home or else I have to collect it myself next time =.=. Mother fucker. As if I always don’t collect my parcels. Only if I get parcels everyday. Who is the customer now?